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Quotes from Dev's Mind
FOUND by Chad A.
in Kansas
I found a green spiral notebook that had various notes and unsent letters. The letters and notes chronicle Devon's summer camp experience in 1997. The find I'm sending you is one of the tabbed dividers in the notebook. Dennis Rodman is cool!
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We collect FOUND stuff: love letters, birthday cards, kids' homework,
to-do lists, ticket stubs, poetry on napkins, telephone bills, doodles -
anything that gives a glimpse into someone
else's life. Anything goes...
I was with her until the Dennis Rodman comment, although I'm glad she changed her mind about her looks.
I'm wondering if you could track Dev's cycle by those times when she likes herself....no she doesn't....She likes herself...No, she doesn't probably about every 28 days or so.
Interesting heros. May have been the required reading for that week.
Good role models in both those heros for sure.
I wonder why "actually I'm pretty" is the only thought not dated.
And sorry- another TR connection for me, since Switters just recently split from the Pike Place Market... and Dev.
I'm terrified that some day someone will find one of my old notebooks...
Dennis Rodman <i>is</i> cool.
HELEN KELLER IS THE BEST HERO EVER!!!!!!!! Did you know she became a well respected speaker?!
Oh, forget it. You know what I mean.
"I am quite ugly" and "Dennis Rodman is really cool" were thoughts that came from Dev's head on the same day. Do you think that the one thought led naturally to the other? that she identified with Dennis because he's quite ugly, too?
What does Dennis look like now, 11, almost 12 years later? Is he still cool? Where is Dev now? And how does she feel about herself as a grown woman? I have a feeling she was definitely an awkward kid.
Helen Keller was my hero too! I used to walk around the house wearing a blindfold. It drove my grandparents nuts. I actually wanted to be her. Maybe some of that was because then I wouldn't be able to see or hear the junk going on in my house at the time. hmmmmm
We are the lucky few: those privy to all of Dev's eleven thoughts throughout May 1996. I hear that was a good month for her, but sadly the other months of that year (well, ever, really) were not nearly so productive. And so this stands in testament to Dev's immortalized eleven thoughts. What an artist.
Anne Frank AND Helen Keller?
Uh, who here has seen Clerks II?
Hahaha.
I wonder why the pretty comment wasn't dated all the way?
Is it because she decided in the middle of writing it to go flirt with someone with her newly acquired self-confidence?
Finds like this make me wish I was Helen Keller.
Anne Frank's death was a great loss to the world. If you've ever read her short stories written in hiding, you can see that we lost a potentially great author.
When life starts getting me down, I read her Diary again and think about 7 people living in a tiny apartment, unable to even look out the window without putting their lives in danger. Then I go outside in the fresh air and everything slides into perspective. Yes, we have problems, and yes, they're tough, but I have so much.
This was pay dirt of all finds ! A whole notebook ??? This page is interesting, but I bet Devon would like the book back. Dennis Rodamn, Helen Keller and Ann Frank. How funny that is.
When I looked at the heading at frst, I thought it said "Quotes from Dev's Mim" than thinking she mispelled Mom. So when I first read this, I was thinking the quotes were from someone's mom ! LOL !
"Helen Keller was largely useless, but look how we remember her. Yep, first lady of the American stage."
Wow, Dev, is so ... profound ::insert eye roll::: I wonder if Dev is tracking her own quotes of if it's a friend.
This sounds like they had been watching 'Clerks 2' to mention Helen Keller & Anne Frank on the one page!
LOL! I love that two ppl pointed out the Kevin Smith and Clerk's referance....
Now he is my hero fo sure!!
Oh to be a teenager. Isn't that cute, she's sick of people's pathetic behavore and her parents have the attitude.
I thought we were about to hear, "Quotes from the Devil's Mind"!!!
However, I like how the author wrote, "I am quite ugly."
Then, she writes, "Actually, I'm pretty."
UGH...make up your mind...you should LOVE yourself no matter the looks!!
Nonetheless, great FIND!
Looks like Devon came full circle.
Anyone else location change?
Wow. This oddly reminds me of myself at that time. Except I thought Barry Bonds was the shiznit at the time (well a few years before) and Billy Ray Cyrus with his mullet. I'm ugly.
Nope, I'm actually HOT!
Can you quote a mind?
Yes, Rebecca, you can. You just quoted mine.
Seeing as how I had about a dozen notebooks similar to what the Finder describes Dev's notebook to be, I can relate. I have found some of them in boxes and reread them and...damn, that's embarassing. I'm thinking "What kind of loser was I?" Sometimes my friends and I would write in each other's notebooks in class in junior high or pass one spiral back and forth. Other times I'd write down dumb lists or quotes or things I thought were *super cool* or whatever. Needless to say, most of my opinions have changed. I'd say I was around 12 or 13 during the time that most of my notebook writing was done. It's crazy how a decade or so can effect a person.
That's funny. I read Helen Keller as Health Ledger for a minute. I was thinking, "Uh-oh, that's not good." But Helen Keller is a good role model.
ok..for one thing, the whole 'name location email' format has changed, and that's messing me up a bit.
Holly in Toronto, do you recall loving yourself as a teenager? if you did, you were the exception, not the norm.
This is typical teenage angsty stuff. Love me, hate me. yadda yadda yadda.
So Helen Keller, Dennis Rodman and Anne Frank walk into a bar. Helen walks up to the bartender and the bartender asks, "What can I get you, little lady?" And Helen Keller says, "Yaaarrrgggggggttthhhhh".
I'd like to think the I'm pretty comment was only partially dated because Devon was interrupted by her crush while she was making note of her increase in self-esteem.
And, orinoco womble, I love your mind.
Maybe Dev needs to remind herself what she thinks from day to day. I know I've been there. "Wait... who is my hero again?"
My sophomore year at uni, my housemates and I used to write down whenever someone said something good... Eventually we papered the kitchen with all the quotes. I still have some of them, and I will never cease to be amazed by our drunken profundity.
This is my favorite Find in recent memory. It's been a while since we saw something that no one was ever supposed to see...EVER.
I like her use of the word "quite."
I am really curious as to where this notebook was found. It seems strange that it would just be laying in the street. Maybe it fell out of box while the older Dev was moving?
I can relate to her quote "It's not the teenagers who has an attitude, its the parents". At first when I read it I thought 'how typical that it should be coming from a teenager' but then when I look back to when I was that young, I can really relate to that because I had some rough times with my mom. In fact, when I was 15, my mom had to be put on hormones and boy, was she a lunatic during that time. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom but she would be like "oh, what a beautiful daughter I have" and the next moment she would be slapping me in the face.
I know...ouch, right. Well my dad finally told her she needed to go back to the doctor and have her prescription changed and lucky for me she did.
Am I the only one that thinks the writer is not the thinker? Really, she (the writer) was in love with her bff Jill (ok, Dev) and wanted to immortalize everything her bff said. Hence the quotes. I know I used to write down things my bff said if it were particularly good. Though in our case it was more like "situationatory" type words, and we taped them to her walls so that we could see them in the morning and laugh. We may or may not have had um, enhancements to help us think these profound words.
Anywho- Love her "quite", it makes the speaker sound rather proper.
So...maybe Dev's friend wrote these in Dev's notebook so that Dev could look back on them years down the road? My school never got into the passing around of notebooks. We did pass notes but I believe that the main focus of our note passing was the way in which the note was folded. The more sophisticated the fold the more desirable it was for others to want to read it and in this way we felt that everyone was jealous that only we could read the notes we passed.
Dev's friend is keeping track of these things because she's teasing her. I know this, because my sisters and friends tend to do this to me... Except my thoughts are far more interesting and original than Dev's, as I left middle school quite a long time ago. Eventually, the girls will develop a sense of humor. It's all part of growing up.
Wow...........this camp must have sucked.
I love how she started to shade around one of the holes. All my notebooks had shading and little pictures on the side of them too.
... Even though Anne Frank was ultimately murdered, she managed, in her brief circumscribed life, to tell the truth and bequeath the gift of hope. She searched for beauty and joy even in the harsh, frightening world of the attic in which her family hid from the Nazis. Her writing has lived on to give us a sense of the potential largesses of the human soul, even in worst-case scenarios. It also reminds us that, behind the statistics about war and genocide, there are thousands of good people we have a responsibility to help.
Anne Frank is my hero too.
I suggest reading Mary Pipher's book, Writing to Change the World. I'm in the process and its changing my world, let it change and inspire yours too
Notes from the bipolar...I'm shy...I'm flirty... I'm ugly...I'm pretty...Helen Keller can't out-rebound Dennis Rodman...
I thought it was someone keeping track of someone else's thoughts too. And I thought Dev was a guy.
I kept a list like this when my husband was in the hospital. The things he came up with on painkillers were just too funny not to share with him later.
Definitely can relate to saying some funny stuff while on painkillers...
While my mom and dad were driving me home from getting my wisdom teeth removed. I squealed "weeee" from the back seat because Dad happened to be driving down a hill at the time.
Yep, I agree. This seems like notes on another person not the actual writer. My friends and I quote each other all the time. Particularly if it's funny. But then we've always been an odd bunch who are easily amused. ;o)
So, Hellen Keller drank Jagermeister?
Pills and booze...
-I wish Dev would have written the things she was too afraid to write down 2-6-08
Holly- like you, I originally thought that these were quotes from Satan himself and that he was going by his hip nickname "Dev". In that context I especially liked "My interest in guys has highly increased" and "Actually I'm pretty". I was a bit perplexed by why the devil would look up to Anne Frank and Helen Keller, of course...
The more I think about it, the more I fancy the idea of Satan being an insecure teenaged girl at fat camp using her spiral notebook to help her work through some of her long term “issues”.
if helen keller had pyschic ability, would you say she had a 4th sense?
I remember sitting in Biology class, right under the teacher's lectern (and therefore in his blind spot). We sat 2 to a table so my lab partner and I would set one notebook between us and slant it back and forth. Somehow we managed to take good class notes while writing back and forth in the pencil-days equivalent of a "chatroom" conversation. (I guess Mr. Morgan just wasn't that hard to follow; if you'd read the chapter, you really didn't need to attend the lecture, and vice versa).
Our paper convos got kind of deep sometimes; I think the fact of carrying them on in silence and not being able to react visibly helped there. You could write the most personal things like: "Um, I think I might be PG" or "Last night my mom asked dad for a divorce" and know there would be no explosion. My lab partner was considered kind of "tough" for our town, but she was a good, encouraging "listener" on paper.
A couple of people mentioned a Clerks 2 scene that little Dev may have been watching at the time... but Clerks 2 came out in 2006. Maybe Kevin Smith IS Dev (but while at summer camp he goes by his alias, Devin (really smart move) - Dev for short.
These are a few random tidbits from his mind (his quotes) that he knows one day he'll be able to work into that Clerks sequel that he's been denying for so long. Maybe it is from a screenwriter's summer camp?
If Dev is the author, wouldn't it say "notes from my mind"? Unless Dev is writing in the third person... But then why doesn't it carry over into the list i.e. "Dev is sick of people's pathetic behavior"?
And has anyone else noticed that the bits in blue pen look like different handwriting than the bits in pencil? (I'm sorry if this was already commented on. Mind like a sieve today.)
Was cleaning house the other day and found a page of notebook paper my housemate and I had used to have a conversation (I taped a note to her door when she was out, and she responded in kind...)
Me: "Campus was crawling with naked marines last night, my bread is missing, and there is a strange guy in Jenni's room."
Her: "I care!"
It must have made sense at the time...
We used to have this old phone/address book that our family used for letting each other know where we were (not home for dinner, going to work early, etc.) One time my dad left a message saying that he and mom were going out to look for the end of the rainbow...
i miss him
Oh Mona! Big hug!
thanks, big sis.... you're sweet.
Great find.
@ MONA- You're actually 'almost' right. I did dislike myself, thought I was overweight, acne, had lots of friends but not 'the cool ones', and abhorred school! However, my Mother (to this day!) is a cleanliness freak, I thought she had mental mood swings but I guess it was menopause, then. Anyway, every morning after I'd get up for school and have breakfast, she'd ask me, "So, did you look at yourself in the mirror yet today and tell yourself...I'm beautiful, I love me, sticks and stones can break my bones, but names will never hurt me!, etc..."
She DRILLED it into our (my 2 sisters and I) skulls!
'Love yourself!" was a constant in our household.
So, maybe I was somewhat NOT the norm?? Sure, I would tell myself sometimes, "You're such an idiot!" or "WTF is wrong with me?" but never would I tell myself, "I HATE ME" or "I'M SO FRICKIN' UGLY!"
But, Mona, I respect what you're saying. I guess it depends alot on a child's foundation and the love and nurturing they get from both parents and extended family?? I truly believe it starts at home.
I understand hormones and puberty, but some do handle it differently than the NOT norm.
@ JODA- I totally like the nickname, 'DEV'. Also, you're right about that...DEV looking up to Helen Keller and Anne Frank as his HEROS!!
My mom was recently going through a box of family photos and found a note her mom had left for her in 1968: "Janie, I didn't tell your father. I love you. -Mom."
My Grandma died two years ago, so that note is now one of my mom's most treasured possessions. She says it reminds her that no matter what she put her mother through, her mother loved and protected her. Sometimes leaving notes can have a more lasting impact...
Holly
Although i grew up in a loving, accepting family, knowing that my parents loved me no matter what, i still remember feeling awkward, and not like everyone else. I liked myself, i just wished that i fit in better. Now, of course, i've accepted that i will never fit in with what's considered normal. And i don't want to.
I must have done something right with my offspring, tho, because they are the most self assured, confident girls i have ever known. (Not to the point of being annoying, tho. lol) I look forward to the future, and asking them about their adolescence. I wonder if they'll remember being the same girls that i see now.
Completely Random:
There is nothing quite like trying to pee while the person in the stall next to you is having a "private" conversation on their cell phone.
My aunt knew Helen Keller and my mother met her. When I asked what Helen was like, they both said in unison, "I couldn't understand one word she was saying."
Uh...I have since seen Helen on a video and could understand her very well. She was young in the video however, and this may account for her better speaking ability. She was also slighty deformed on one side of her face which the public rarely saw.
On a side note, Annie Sullivan is my hero. Helen would never had made it without her teacher. Both are good heros.
MONA- Hubby and I have a 19 year old son, and boy, did he ever go through that (like the FIND kinda thing) and it drove us nuts!!!
I often found notes in his room or at his computer desk like, "I'm stupid" or "WHY...WHY...WHY???" and it hurt my guts, heart and soul like I've never felt before. :o(
However, he's now an adult, has a fantastic, f/t job in Mechanics and is currently working on his Apprenticeship. Totally in his element, has a gorgeous g/f of 2 years and are in love! (Well...we know what kind of LUST they're in!!)
But, yes, I too can't wait to see what kind of man he grows in to, as well as with your girls. I tried to raise him (like they come with manuals!) with integrity, kindness, lots of love, lots of hugs! and etc...
I think you've done the same, we try to do better than what we had or were given, right?
Thanks for your opinion, though! I would of never of thought about my mom telling my sisters' and I to look in the mirror say, "I love me" and "I'm beautiful"!!!!
I can laugh at it now!
Mona, I admire and look up to you, even though I don't have the faintest of who you are...well, from your vocab and humour, I KNOW I like you alot!
CHEERS!
P.S. Yesterday was my Birthday, (just turned 38) and I'm still celebrating...on my 2nd glass of Shiraz Red and sitting by the wood, burning fire, all whilst typing away!
Dennis Rodman is visual ipecac. He was never cool - just a mentally ill a-hole.
"visual ipecac" made me laugh and I could not agree more.
Holly, Happy Birthday!
I can relate to this note AND to both Anne Frank and Helen Keller as heroes. Although, I think Turbo has confused Helen Keller with a pirate...(!!??)
And, if you'll allow me a brief digression, my college roommates and I also collected our profundities on little post-it notes on our fridge. It became known as "The Dumb Fridge". To this day, I still remember what was on the fridge with more clarity than I remember what was in my textbooks.
Holly. I like you too. Have another shiraz for me, wouldja? And if Found comes to toronto, we'll meet there, ok?
Hmmm... it seems someone has taken my penname, or should I say, my keyboardname. :( I shall just have to come up with a different book reference... any ideas?
The thing about teenager's parents having the attitude sounds like something from Anne Frank's diary- I can remember reading it and thinking how lucky I am that I am a teenager and actually like my parents for the most part.
Happy birthday, Holly! I always enjoy reading your reactions to other peoples' comments.
In the past few days I have found a TON of notes in the school halls, one which seems to be about a kid whose cousin Kwan got killed somehow: "The Thing The Probably Changed me The Most was what happened to my Cousin Kwan. It taught me that Life is very short. It also taught me That you cannot trust everybody"
A green spiral notebook with secret thoughts, etc? Sounds like an Anastasia Krupnik type thing. Rad.
This is one of the best things I have ever seen on FOUND. That is cool that you have a whole notebook of her summer.
"I am quite ugly"
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"actually I'm pretty"
that's the best
No wonder Anne Frank ranted about her parents and the Van Damms. It was bad enough being a teenager with a menopausal mother...can you imagine being locked up in an attic with her and unable to get away even for a moment? Personally, I would have gone up on the roof and jumped off, in that situation. At night of course, so as not to give away the other refugees. The world would have found my corpse the next day and wondered where it came from...although, in the middle of the Blitz, maybe not. It would have been just another casualty.
@ Terrie
@ Mona
@ Original Alice
Thanks a bunch for the Birthday wishes!! You guys made me feel all warm and special inside! Well, maybe it's because I know you thought of me...YAY!!
I did have a fantastic Day!
Also, that's a definite 'YES' on that meeting in Toronto, k Mona?? Just one more glass, tho', please? HAHA!
And Alice, the Original, thanks for the comment and I adore all your posts, as well!!
What a wonderful group of people I've encountered here!!
Stay safe and keep warm today!! Thursday morning...Holy snow!!!
Happy Birthday Holly!! Hope you had a lot of fun.
You still sitting by the wood, burning fire and drinking Shiraz??
;-)
(Any chance you are on MySpace?? Come on over!)
Oh, I suppose I'm meant to comment on the Find... yawn...
Oh yes, I've recently read Helen Keller's autobiog, and she really is amazing. Just goes to prove that nothing is an obstacle to the human spirit (q.v. Roxy tomorrow).
Hey, for whoever commented on him writing in third person, I do it all the time. It's M's To-Do List, never "My." There's something more formal and prettier with the third person.
And I really love this one, all the thoughts that go through one's head in the span of a day deserve to be recorded and shared. :)
Wow! 72 comments ... some find.
I'm from Detroit, so understand why Dev finds Dennis Rodman cool. We don't have much else, there.