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February 15, 2006 |
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I Wish I Never Told You
FOUND by Alita Anime
in Fort Wayne, Indiana
I found this inside a book checked out from the library.
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This captures my feelings perfectly.
Best. Find. Ever. I don't think there's a girl alive that doesn't relate to this in some way (I know I certainly do).
It's strange because it's really well drawn and nice to look at, but then you realize how sad it is.
And yes, who can't relate to that...
WOW. Hallmark should make this into a greeting card.
check out postsecret.com it looks like it belongs there
I'm sure I've seen this before! I'm very perplexed as to where and with who! Jenny?!
I think it's worthy of framing and selling.
I hope everyone noticed the blood on her leg, dripping sideways and down. And is that a cut on her knee? There's a story being told here.
Reminds me of so many people and myself.
Sam, it doesn't remind you of yourself. You just think it would be cool to be an emo cutter. Go peddle it somewhere else, poseur.
Oh for crying out lound, build a bridge and get over it, Heather. Obviously self-harming isnt an issue in your fairyland of happiness and smiles. Tell us, how is the sand down there?
Very well drawn. It appears that there's blood dripping from.. the character's underwear? Maybe it's about sexual abuse? Anyway, great, great find.
Very interesting, why is the girl wearing a mask, is she ashamed of something and she doesn't want people to know who she is, I think she was raped, by her boyfriend most likely some guy she told them she loved them, there's the cut on the knee,the blood coming from the underwear, definately looks like she could've been raped.Anyway that's just my opinion
There are lots of people who write to www.postsecret.com who say that they have left secrets in books at the library. I know I have. This looks like it's one of a brethren of secrets... Maybe check out some other books and you'll find another...
This is prolific and beautiful...
Thats so sad yet so beautiful. Easly one of the greatest find ever.
Wow, this is very disturbing. I hope the girl is ok.
http://whatsup.foundmagazine.com/?cat=14
scroll down, a girl's friend drew it.
This is how I have felt since December.
I think she's pregnant, or miscarried. I love this, wow.
it's http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com
if you like this site, you'll love that one
Someone send these to post secret it would be amazing !♥♥
umm this scares me...
umm this scares me...
So creepy, but I can't look away. The artwork is beautiful and captivating at the same time!
Maybe the blood on the leg is because he was her first?
The cuts on her leg are typical of those who self harm - more for the females then the males. Read the book "Cutting: understanding and overcoming self mutilation" if you are curious. It made some things clear to me about myself I hadn't thought of before, but if you've never hurt yourself you wouldn't get it.
Buncha damn cry babies.
I love this. It's beautiful, sad, dramatic, depressing and uplifting all at the same time. Jenny, please keep your opinions to yourself about things you obviously don't understand.
I agree with the pox from earlier. Many female cutters that I know prefer to cut their thighs (even with a preference as to which one) over their wrists. It has a lot to do with self-hatred and feeling that you are wrong but not wanting your self-punishment to be public knowledge.
Also, the mask is of the commedia del'Arte style. This girl has probably done some kind of theatre research to reference this particular character.
i agree w/beverly and sarah. i think she was raped or sexually abused by someone she loved--or thought she loved. maybe a family member?
This is heartbreakingly sad. I can relate.
if anyone has ever self mutilated, or knows a cutter you would understand that many cutters are motivated by a force stronger than themselves to purge their bodies of hate, shame, sadness, and pain. Often women cut their thighs- wrists and ankles are popular too. Many cutters are perfectionists in "real life"- the feeling you must always be presentable, attentive, masked.
I love this so much. It's so powerful.
i've said it before, and i'll say it again: these self-mutilation finds are always from the library!!!
It reminds me of an Aubrey Beardsley drawing. I can't comment on the psychological meaning of the self-mutilation, but the style, especially the mask and blood, have a fin de siecle feeling.
I wish I had someone to say "I love you" to.
I've seen it on the internet before... I think the artist may be Jason Shogreen, but I could be wrong. I've definitely photoblogged it before.
This would be my favorite find. But, that is amazing. It captures so much feeling.
Hmmm....check out the elongated part of the mask.....could that be a Pinocchio reference....as in lying?? hmmmmm...people and their emotions....such a tangle sometimes.....
I'm from the Fort Wayne area! Good to see the small city from abroad. May I ask what book you found it in?
http://whatsup.foundmagazine.com/?p=43
LIZZ - are you Leezard? Do you still look at this one? probably not...two ships passing in the night...somehow i think i know you....
Manda- I wonder if it is you that I know.
I hope so, and I hope not...
A clue or two, about yourself?
as for me Lizz with two zs, loves postsecret, theatre, sunshine, refusing labels, naps and found.
What would be different if you hadn't told him? Wouldn't you have loved him anyway?
Lizz - Rocky Horror? "Ariel"? Mad Muse?
why do you hope not? because of the cutter thing? i've been there. for many years. still struggle sometimes - but that's a secret...
ok, so it isn't you...we prob. don't know each other, but it was a near miss! are you in school?
I have a friend named Ariel, and I love Rocky Horror - I worked on it for a professional theatre-but i wasn't in the mad muse production.
I am in school
how about you?
mines a secret too :o)
i was in a production of rocky this past year... i work with scct...hmmm....how bizarre is this. wanna get coffee? LOL
i think i'm kidding, but maybe not...
oh yeah, and i'm not in school anymore.
I keep thinking you're the manda i know, I've worked with SCCT also....
coffee is an excellent thing to get...
unless you're a 65 year old man who is going to abduct me. then it's not so excellent.
what are you doing this summer in SC?
i'm doing a bunch of shows. i bet we do know each other, and i'm just not pulling up which lizz you are. are you in highschool or college? one of my students? hmmm... that's my only fear with total divulgence. wouldn't want to admit weakness to someone i am supposed to be an authority figure to! >snort<
life is incredibly busy right now, hence i'm on the computer at midnight EST. :-( however, things should lighten up pretty soon.
i am not a 65 year old man. i'm an overweight middle-aged woman. ;-) how about coffee and a darkchocolate croissant at panera?
it's official - almost a week. i must have creeped you out. ;-) sorry 'bout that.
Because we know this picture was drawn by an artist as part of a series after a painful and messy break up -
The blood on the leg could indicate the loss of virginity an total and raw exposure that she felt when she said she loved him. the mask could be a reference to the story of Pierrot and Pierrette, but in reverse, so that she is the one pining for him and feels like a fool/clown the whole time. The cut in the knee represents how she has fallen painfully and cutting herself with the knife shows the open wound she suffers from and that she feels she has inflicted on herself.
i wish i had never told you who i am...
A Hallmark Card for the Depressed?
Wow....This is on amazing picture. I dont really know what to think of it. Its mind boggling, because I do understand. I can relate.
Wow....This is on amazing picture. I dont really know what to think of it. Its mind boggling, because I do understand. I can relate.
Oh pffffffft.
I think the blood coming down her leg signifies she gave her virginity to him or he raped her or something to that extent.
Oh wow, these comments have come a long way since last I looked! Brave Manda for revealing so much of your secret life. Ouch. No wonder Sweeney Todd touched a nerve... all those glittering razors... ‘These are my friends...’ Here’s a hug across the water.
So glad there are problems I don’t have...
Incidentally if you check out the ‘Hey! That’s Me’ column (bit tricky to locate: hey, FOUND chaps, how about an easy click? Oh, and how about updating the column? Doesn’t seem to have had anything new added for a long time...), you will find that the source of this Find has indeed been identified. Somebody’s friend in Buffalo, NY.
Aha, I see that's what Jasonsan's link is:
http://whatsup.foundmagazine.com/?p=43
Thank you.
You guys,it was just a messy break up.
No raping!Maybe you should look around before you start saying things like that.
I just hope she didn't give it to whoever it is directed to. Holy guilt trip.
I think the conversation between Lizzie & Manda is far more interesting than the find!
this is definitely from postsecret.com! weird. someone sent in this exact secret.
wow...
i was just directed to this and let me say:
1: "jen". do i know you???
2: this is a)who doesn't feel like cutting their wrists after a serious heartache/break?
b)the blood on the leg=the result of what happens when you 'cheat' on someone or have an affair...whatever. that's what happened. it's the 'punishment'. it's the dishonor in blood sacrifice. that's how i felt. jen...whoever you are... shush. you haven't a clue. i lost a stepdaughter. shut up. that happened YEARS ago. anyways...that's what's up. and me and said person have gotten over it and are friends now so redemption is real. nah nah!
sincerely,
brezo
Looks like a postsecret.com submision to me.
the other day i was trying to email a piece of a short story i found in the street outside my work, but the machine wasn't properly hooked up to the internet yet... so i killed some time looking thru past submissions... and i found this picture.
i *knew* i recognized this drawing style, if not this particular drawing, as being that of an old friend of mine. so i copied the link and sent it to her, asking if it was indeed one of hers. And it was. amazing, isn't it?
brezo indeed drew this. it has been a habit of hers to make copies of drawings and leave them random places. sometimes they end up in a library book in indiana, sometimes they end up on my bedroom wall.
I have been drawn to this "Found" since just after it was posted. I have forwarded it to people I know. I keep coming back to it. I don't want to get into the psych stuff, but at the same time... it really makes me think about me once upon a time. Amazing find.
J
i wish i was her.
i know this is significant, but have yet to figure it out. There are 4 lower case 'i's in the artwork. (The 4th formed by the puddle of blood on the floor). Any ideas? And why no feet? Does that allude to feelings of being "stuck"/helpless/having no way out? There is a lot going on... the disproportionate arms... She's wearing a "wife-beater"! .... i need anwswers ;)
Also, I believe an important point is being missed here. "i wish i never told you" then a bit of an exaggerated space before the 'i love you'. Could it be that "i love you" is a just statement of fact and that there is something else that she wishes she hadn't confessed...? (My error on the # of "i"s - sorry - I wasn't counting the one in "wish"... so it's five...
this makes me want to check out some books and put in my own drawings... maybe someone will find them and post them here. i'm glad the person who drew this has it for the world to see.
I wish I knew whatever happened to Lizz and Manda. I was hoping that they would become friends. :(
what's funny is that the handwriting looks ExACTLY like my ex boyfriends. so much so that i got really nervous.
and yes yes i know it's a girl that's pictured.
what the hell happened to manda and lizz? im so intrigued. i need updates. wtf! somebody say something.
what happened to LIZZ and Manda?
I am going to knock your socks off....
whether intentionial or not self mutilation is satanic. Many people are controlled by "Spirits" of depressiona nd begin to cut or self mutilate themselves. 1Kings 18:27 At noon Elijah began to taunt them. "Shout louder!" he said. "Surely he is a god! Perhaps he is deep in thought, or busy, or traveling. Maybe he is sleeping and must be awakened." 28 So they shouted louder and slashed themselves with swords and spears, as was their custom, until their blood flowed
So even if you the cutter does not know what is going on in the supernaturual it is still based on the occult and satanic activity
OH FOR PETE'S SAKE!
get over yourselves. The people you thought you loved are replaceable, so go ahead and replace them!
this person is a pretty good artist. I thought this was a friend of mine's for a second. Looks like something she'd draw.
lizz never responded. :-( i come back every once in a great while to see if she might have said something...i see all the PA posts and think maybe she has sent friends to look, or that she's using a different name.
who knows? *sigh*
i wish i'd never told her.
It's too carefully drawn/crafted to be authentic desperation/despair. Look at the mouth. It's really a nice drawing.
OK, you found the drawing in a library book - what was the title of the book? Just curious about what might be an interesting read.
no matter how much you love someone, and no matter how much they hurt you, you should never harm yourself as a result. just a personal rule. the bravest thing you can do is be happy in the face of pain and misery, that is the best revenge.
Reverend Ron:
Did you really post that to deter others from mutilating themselves? I think it would take more compassion than basically saying in so many words, Did you know that you are practicing Satanic rituals?
Sometimes I am ashamed of how Christians come across to others especially non-believers. It's just not the way to reach out to others.
That's really sad. You can't really sympathize with whoever drew this unless you've felt the same way. Great find, but sort of makes your heart ache...
she looks as if she has been abused in a relationship and is ending it all. eventhough cutting relives pressure and pain. it will hurt you in the long run. believe me. i'd know.