You Inside of Me
FOUND by Carol Kolb
in New York, New York
I found this note on the ground in a subway station. Here's what I love about it:
1. It makes one queasy to see someone with fifth-grade writing skills talkin' nasty. Now, I pray she isn't actually in fifth grade but the loopdy-doop handwriting doesn't plead the case she's not. Spelling-error-prone sex talk reminds you that these people are procreating, not you.
2. We're chugging along in the letter-- friends, friends, want to be friends-- and then she drops the bomb. Awesome surprise ending.
3. It's 2003 and the little ladies are aggressive. This note is evidence that today's young females are finally making their presence known in the previously male-dominated field of beggin' for it. Damn.
4. Like many great works, there is room left for interpretation. The debate rages on in my own office. Now we know she wants him inside, yes, but all the only-friends part.... is she really asking for no-strings-attached sex? Or was the friends-only assertion one that subsequent paragraphs negate? Was all that just a clever literary technique to draw the recipient in, a nod at innocence and protocol, a set up for the revelation of her true intentions? Does she, in her heart, want to date this boy or does she truly only want, you know, to feel him inside of her? We will never know.
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Love it, love it. Love the note. Love your analysis, Carol. Just love it all.
I absoloutly LOVE this note! My all time favorite!
yes, absolutely my all-time favorite find. I'm a bit obsessed with it, actually.
what makes you sure it is a girl writing the letter?
Indeed, what if this person is actually a man who wants to cannabalize this other person?
I think that's scarier than the current analysis...
men can put parts of themselves inside other men without them being cannibals - if I'm not mistaken homosexual men sometimes do this
No, I think the handwriting definitely looks like a girl's. Boys this age generally have handwriting that is barely legible at best, and generally only by close relatives.
How do you know the age, Elizabeth? Assumption 1) age. Based on this assumption - you make the writer a girl.
But, I think you are very nice and we can be friends. And...
The writer could definitely have been older than 11, could easily be 13-16 or older still. This is pretty entertaining, in any case.
Oh my God! You guys are my people! This is MY favorite find ever, too! In fact, I am slightly obsessed with it, too! I printed it out a couple years ago and posted it on my fridge. I read it REGULARLY and I make all first-timers read it, too.
Carol's analysis is a thing of beauty.
I love this, too. And, just so you know, I know a lot of adults with this sort of handwriting. However, I think he or she is around sixteen. And yes, I know HS boys with this girly of writing.
this is my first day to stumble upon this website. and i just couldn't stop reading one found after another. and i say this is my favorite so far. carol's analysis is the closest to what i can make out of what the author is and what the author meant. but its also funny to consider other possibilities. we will never really know
Love it. Whoever the writer is, that person should brush up on his or her spelling abilities and write. I love the innocent progression with the huge surprise ending...POW!
It's weird because although the revelation is pretty risqué, there's a sense of, well, beauty to the writer's idea of sex. It's not "I wanna get nasty with you!" it's "I wanna feel as close to you as possible."
on the whole handwriting/gender/age debate, my 21 year old husbands handwriting looks almost exactly like that..just shows you how hard it is to judge something acurately.
This could very well be a girl writing to another girl. Note it's vague description it doesn't specify any particular piece of the human anatomy.
I like the idea that this is a girl writing to another girl. If these are two female teenagers who identify as straight, but who are looking to explore a little, that would explain the repeated statements of friendship followed by wanting to feel you inside me.
I must say, I have spoken a very similar statement to another girl (using much better English but none the less fumbling for the right words). I concur--this is between two girls. I also assume that the probable girl is in her teens or early twenties because she does this......in between....all of her thoughts....which I think of as an email or IM derivative.
We have the same last name. thats weird. i wonder if we're related.
This find is beautiful, be it the innocent mistakes or the "close to me" view on sex. Incredible. I wonder what happened. Did accidently set the note down somewhere? Or did he drop it in shock as he ran to her house. We may never know... but we'll always wonder. =) Great find.
I teach middle school. Some boys write this way. My sister, aslo a teacher, helping me catch up on a monstrous pile of papers early in my carreer, asked casually, upon seeing higly fluid, ornamented lettering on the part of a male student, asked, "Is he gay?" Ignoring the judgement in her voice, I responded, "He certainly acts that way."
how do you know shes talking to a man. She very well could be talking to a woman.
I like the change in handwriting.
I've received this note!
Ok, not exactly this note but one VERY close to this one. If this is the same situation, it's a young woman writing to another young woman. In my case the writer, while a poor speller, was far more savvy about who she was and what she wanted than I was at the time.
This could be a joke. Seriously. I write things like that to my friends pretty much all the time. BEAST NUGGET.
When I was reading this, I got the mental image of a high school girl, about 10th grade, sitting in the science lab with a frog in front of her and glancing at her female friend who is sitting across the room, in front of a window that is letting the sun come through it and is ilumanating her entire self and is paying attention to the teacher, whos voice sounds distant and puts the writer in sort of a trance. so she writes this note and hopes for the best . . .
I agree that it could just be a joke. Me and my friends write sexually oriented jokes like this all the time.
My brothers, who are twins, and leftys, write like that and they are in their 30's.
hhaha wow. cool. i've written a couple of these notes in my lifetime. just kidding. or am i?
Isn't this from a song or a movie or something?
Goodness, she sure isn't wasting any time! She might want to worry about taking a course in grammar before she thinks about hitting the sack with whoever this was intended for.
Ha Ha I wish I had the guts to right my best friend a letter like this (although I'm an English major so it would sound/look a lot better). But I'm in a situation like this could be. I'm a girl and my best friend is always messing with my head. And although I'm sure she doesn't mean to I wish I could tell her she is starting to make me "like like" her. But here I am telling all of you people instead. Well I hope this person wrote a new note and it was better and that they gave it to the intended person. I admire them for there courage. This is absolutely one of my favorites.
wow...i really like this find. it actually reminds me of myself when i was in jr. high, when i fell for my best friend. i have to agree with others, the hand writing can be both male or female. because when i was younger my hand writing was almost exactly like that. but in my head the writer is a female. y? because being a guy, i dont think i have ever heard a man talk to another man about their friendship like that. thats just my opinion of course. but hey, im only 19 so maybe one day..
I think that the writer is a young high school girl. She wrote "feel you inside me" in a more italic print, which seems like she's excited about the thought of feeling her friend.
I love the change in handwriting towards the end. Like the author's pulse has quickenned, or their heart has skipped a beat and they've got to get their confession out quickly before they change their mind. I don't want to hazard a guess at the sex of either party, I just think it's one hell of a juicy find! Brilliant!
Mmm, personaly, I think it is a highschool girl. My own handwriting looks a lot like that when I'm writing something in a hurry, also my spelling completely sucks, so yeah, u can't really tell what age the person is. I think it is a girl writing a guy that she maybe has lately become friends with. Who knows...
Mmm... Personaly, I think that it was a teenage girl. My spelling and writing are just as bad as her's when I am trying to write something in a hurry. Yeah, I think it is a girl. My personaly veiw is that she is writing to a guy that she had recently become friends with... But no one but her will ever know... except for maybe the person she was writing to. She may never have given it to them.
Hehe, my first time posting on a website. Can u tell? :P Stupid thing told me it hadn't gone through. Ah well. But I forgot to say, It's a sweet letter all told. :D
I reckon it's a girl just from the words used. Maybe the person she's written this to is with someone else and she accepts that but wants to feel the closeness with this person. Just a theory. I love the innocence of this note. Raw feelings and risking so much. Barriers broken down and nothing to hide behind once this has been delivered. I hope it worked out ok for them.
I love the complete honesty OR at least, the complete up-frontedness of it all. There is, as Zoe said, such an element of risk taking here, it's brave. Heart it big time.
I love the complete honesty OR at least, the complete up-frontedness of it all. There is, as Zoe said, such an element of risk taking here, it's brave. Heart it big time.
NICE! Nice note and nice analysis.
I like how the writer puts a five dotted elipsis. That's strange to me.
This handwriting is just like my friend Andrew who lives in the City... Hmm. Maybe a phone to see who he wanted to be inside is needed.
Actually, I recognize this one. I'm sure I wrote it 16 years ago and gave it to my boyfriend-shortly-thereafter in study hall. Was my first venture at being risque and breaking out of my good little southern girl mold. I always liked being sweet and innocent and then having a double-take line at the end. It worked quite well. :P
I love this. I also couldn't of read it at a better time. For about the last month i've become really close to this guy and well, he turns me the hell on. I still want to be friends but i also want him sooo bad. I should be writing this in past tense, because i already got him. A one time bootycall while we were both stoned. It was amazing...I am actually considering printing it out and using it..maybe fix the mistkaes. It will come in handy <3
Ryanne in Alabama, maybe you should check YOUR spelling before you WRITE something. About the letter, it was hilarious. But I didn't picture it being two girls until it was pointed out. Probably so.
I agree with Daniel. What if this person eats the other person
this is the hottest friends-with-benefits request note EVER!!!
:o That is hilarious. Oh man. I'm going to write something like this to my girlfriends just for the hell of it (especially since we already play up the whole lesbian-friend jokes). xD; Awesome find.
I've been in situations like this before. The first time I read it I thought it was a girl writing to another female friend. I always jump to that conclusion, being that I am a lesbian, but seeing other people believed it too made me think again. It's very possible this is a highschool girl whos falling for her best friend and is afraid of what may happen. God knows, it happened to me. Only I never wrote her a note. And she never found out. Kudos to this one for having the guts. Maybe next time... I can be brave too.
My brother-in-law is 30 and writes like a 5 year old.
this remindes of one of my friends (a guy)...we aint so close anymore though
(i miss him && his touch)
so yeh we used to be close but we started getting closer in a touching way and sometimes when i caught and still catch him staring at me it really makes me wonder what is goin on in his head.
i wanna know when i starting having these feelings for him aye...when our friendship changed.
i think the reason why we arnt close friends anymore is coz we got to close.
i hope that isnt what happend to this person...coz it hurts...real bad...i'd do almost anything to feel his arms around me again =(
and the analization of this note is one of the best i have read =]
you're right, anna, it was an awesome analization, very thorough. In fact I'm a little sore.
"Analization"? So maybe that's where she or he wants this other person inside him or her.
Analysis?
It would have been a better surprise ending if the title of the find wasn't "You Inside of Me." Way to ruin it!!
i feel this same way, too bad my friend is married now.. because i want "you inside of me"
I think this is a 90 year old man dictating a letter to his pet hamster. (The letter is, of course, being transcribed by his 14 year old asexual/hermaphrodite niecephew.)
I picture a drab, overweight girl with a low self esteem, fishing for a relationship with some guy who has been friendly with her, (who she likes a lot but doesn't want to jepordize his being friendly with her)and she desperately wants the relationship go to the next level even if it's just on a F-buddy level. She'll settle for that if it will keep him around, but the relationship will have moved to a more auspicious level
I found the comments as interesting as the note. Most of the people who noted gramatical and spelling errors shouldn't call the pot black, and almost everyone who proclaimed be to be educators had the most typos and errors of all (excepting the ones who deliberately do it for IM)
Oddly enough, I have similar feelings right now for a female friend. Odd that I would see this two days after spending time with her.
And by similar feelings, I don't mean that I want her inside me. Thanks.
i LOVE this not!!!!
this is my first time on this page i stumbled upon it... hilarious!
ach, old-friend-found-I-Just-want-to-feel-you-inside-of- I think this day may be brighter than I had expected, aforementioned found being my all-time favorite, no foolin'. yay. (sigh)
this is amazing. wow, this girl/boy (not going to get drawn into that one) has guts!!! what a brave letter! makes me wonder what happened when it got received, or if it got received...
Actually, I just came to the realization that this girl is pretty much saying to this guy "Hey, let's be fuck buddies!" Since she wants to stay "friends" but wants to "feel him inside her".
Friends don't let friends... oh, wait! Yes they do!
I held out for true love.
I find this find disgusting. I don't think it's proper for people to write notes like this. Read a bible!
She wants him inside of her. It is an expression of having the other in the heart. Inside each other souls clinging together in a always continuing bond. I do not think she means having sex but more symbolically. She is a woman right? Most of the times it are men that think of sex when they write such a note I believe:-)
Holly, lighten up. Why is it unacceptable for people to write notes, but perfectly acceptable for people to do what this one implies?
People have sex.
That's why you're here.
That's why I'm here.
I think it's important for people to be able to express what they feel.
The inability of people to express themselves has caused more harm than good, overall. Read a history book.
Yes, read a Bible. There's nothing about sex in that story.
Have YOU read the Bible Holly?
The writing seems rushed at the end. Not sure why, but it starts our real neat then gets kind of sloppy. Nervousness maybe?
This just shows you there is alot of grey in the world. This could be male or female. Either way there are pockets of society that are into waiting until marriage. I for one wiated until I married never regretting my personal decision. We all are born of free will which enables us to makes our choices. For every action there is a consequence. The old proverb is still true today- "you reap what you sow. We are not to judge other people for the choices they make. No matter what takes shape after the choice is made remember we still need to accept people and to love them even if they make a mistake.
This one scares me a little. Seems kinda stalker-ish. Also, the juvenile in me loves it that there were 69 comments before this one. (insert Beavis laugh here)
Holly, the Bible is filled with references to sex! Are you kidding me?!? Read "Song of Solomon" for chrissakes! It's people like you who make judgmental, ignorant comments that disgust me. (Or should I have said "judgenmental"?) Ha ha.
That's amazing. Sadly, I feel the same about my best friend.
I love the honesty and the courage. I said something like that once (not nearly as forward)but I fell in love with her. She loves me too. I hope the story behind this is similar.
Who said this is a lady? Maybe it is a gay guy with a nice hand writing (that sounds about right)
Perhaps she means spiritually.
Haha.
And it ain't no gay guy. Only a young girl can be that meandering.
I love this found, the idea of taking a risk and telling someone how you feel is lovely. I of course am choosing a less casual sex, more fear she doesn't like you "that way" sort of interpretation. After reading these comments I am struck by how many of you are holding back on your feelings for someone. I hope at least some of you decide to take a chance.
Good luck
This is beautiful. Whoever they were, they well understood that undefinable feeling of someone inside of them...Love it.
my boyfriend's handwriting is similar to this. and he's twenty. perhaps it's a lefty thing.
Notice that the handwriting abruptly changes starting with the second to last line. If you remove those last two lines, the entire note still makes sense. My theory is that some wise guy found the note, realized with some devilish glee that the poor kid didn't put a period on the end of her last sentence, and added the last two lines just for kicks. The possibility that the change in handwriting had to do with the stress on the writer doesn't escape me, but the abrupt change in style and content had me wondering.
This find has more comments than any other one that i've seen. I guess sex really does sell.
i totally agree w/ shannoxx. it makes complete sense. a girl can become in love w/ her best friend. it happens all the time. it beautiful how this perso. lets call her/him chris, a nice, nuetral name. haha, lol. butch and daniella. very funny marcie. now that i hav my keypad back into safe hands, ahem, it could b anyone. chris is very brave no matter wat, i whish i could hav found out wat happend...
that looks like my brothers handwriting.
:(
i dont what to seem pessemistic, but this letter, although brilliant and well written really makes me nervous for the assumed girl. I just keep pictureing the young sister character from the movie Kids. Really disturbing and sad.
Yup she really wants sex with no strings.
I love it!
This is fantastic....I am so jealous of this find!
I have worse handwriting than that and I'm nearly 18. D=
She could be older.
I think it would make great lyrics to a song.
this girl definitely is in love with this boy... it is possible that when she wrote the letter she wasn't completely sure if the boy felt exactly the same way towards her...and concerned she might scare him away; but she definitely wants to be with him.
OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!! I love this site!!!!!!!!!THAT IS MY NOTE!!!!!!!
Haha, never even gave it to him. I was going over to his and had a whole plan to leave it in his room for him to find but then, well lets just say I didn't need the note...
i love how the handwriting slowly shifts from being neat to, by the end (and the POW! ending), slanted and hasty.
Maybe she was writing this and her mother was about to walk in? So he hurriedly scribbled the rest of the note down, and that's why its shifts from friends to sex so quickly. Might as well cut to the chase I guess.
and i also wanted to say that this is in my top three favorite finds.
it could be from a girl to a girl. oooh.
or it could be a joke.
i'm going to send a link to this to my best friend now. as a joke.
i just love how her/his handwriting starts off neat and orderly and then she/he just gets this incredible need to get across this message and scrawls out the rest.... great.
I agree with completely in sane:
It's extremely obvious to me that a boy received this note and either he himself or one of his friends thought it would be funny to add the last lines.
Was anyone here ever a kid?!?
The handwriting is totally different for the last "steamy" lines.
Come on.
i think that holly means that you should wait until you get married, i know that there are tons of refrences to sex in the bible. and i kinda know how whomever wrote this note feels, i have a crush on a guy who likes someone outta the country... and we have opposing views on some things, too. =[
How are you so sure this is a woman?
HAHA! what makes this Found so hilarious is the very witty writing of the finder. YOU ARE SO FUNNY!!!
aaaaaand this is my favorite. For two reasons: 1. I know what feeling that is like. It's weird, and I can definitely see myself in this letter. It's kind of creepy. 2. The analysis is amazing. It just makes the letter.
I have to agree with those who think the last two lines were added by someone else where the writing changes abruptly... although it doesn't seem wording a guy would use, it's a little too "romance novel-ey."
Either way, it's still one of the best.
this is freaky that is exactly how i feel with my friend, i'm falling for him, hard and fast, the last 2 sentences, are different, not her handwriting, or like she didn't really want to write it and just wanted to spit it out. i'm just amazed that was she perfectly illustrates how i feel
This really looks like a note my little brother wrote to a boy he really liked back in high school. I remember the morning he wrote it on the subway, he and I are very close. I didn't see that last part though, maybe he turned away from me to finish it. We got off on Platform F and when we got to school he didn't have it anymore. This was YEARS ago though, so I can't be sure. But wow that looks so much like his writing. He was 16 at the time, and the other boy was 17. And obviously he never gave the note because he lost it, or maybe he got embarrassed and let it go. Nothing ever happened between them.
Isnt this a universal dilema? You really like "someone" and dont want to jeopardize the relationship by confusing it with sex, but at the same time because you do really like the "someone", you cant help but to fantasize about having sex with them. Its the natural progression of being human, of being sexual creatures we are. Or... is that just me?!
You know what I can't read this without a touch of jealousy... Whoever wrote this is probably fairly young and having all those great feelings you get when you start out... hormones are crazy and all you want is to touch, smell, taste every boy and every girl. I am engaged to a man but I know deep down I want a girl. There's no turning back for me but I love that the author of this (who is definitely a girl, I just know) still has all her decisions to make and will hopefully do what is true to her heart. She'll get hers. I never got mine.
It's insane to think that a little while ago, someone could have been reading our "dropped" and "lost" notes and gaining insight to what the youth was going through at that time...to sit here and see what they were going through a few years ago.....it's insane.
I want you to need me. Take my hand and lead me to you. Inside your heart, Inside your soul, ... I offer complete devotion to you. So will you accept me?And let happen what could be.
Just put some faith in destiny.
And take me inside!
first time on site...but yea...diffenetly an interesting message...this guy gound it in 2003...so we know whoever made this note had something easier like aim...but im guessing this would be between to girls in hs passing notes...or more likely a really weird chick writing this...i don't think a guy is writing it b/c dudes don't really touch that much
Sounds like he or she is confused, wants to be friends and at the same time has the hots for him!! I wouldn't want to be in those shoes!
Your theories about two girls or two boys are totally random, the last line is normally used as a reference to the coitus, a.k.a. The sexual intercourse between the members of the opposite sex.
There is simply no reference to homosexuality, and that would be too weird in this case of a boy/girl who is searching his/her sexual identity, to write a totally classical "more than just friends" letter to the same sex.
This looks just like my friend's handwriting when we were in high school - her handwriting was pretty much the same from 6th grade on thru high school. It's not hard to believe that a 10th or 11th grader wrote this.
I highly doubt that it was homosexual - I do think it was from a girl to a guy who she's been hanging out with as a friend - and she doesn't want to jeopardize the friendship, so she assures him that even though she wants to sleep with him, she's willing to be just friends too.
I agree, Wizzy. I think the "just friends" references are there so that if he rejects the idea of taking their "friendship" to another level, she can (at least on the face of things) shrug it off and still hang out with him.
We can only speculate what the writer of this find really means. How do we know it is written by a female? Even a professional handwritng analysis would be a speculation? Stating that it must be a really young girl is just as accurate as stating the note was written by a 35 year old male PhD rocket scientist.
Too bad there's no contact information on that one... I'll be her friend! Well, maybe that would be trashy of me. Oh well...
The perfect woman.
It's funny. This is totally something my HS girlfriend would have written to me at the beginning of our relationship. She was crazy about me, but cautious about relationships so she just wanted to "hook-up". Fact is I was holding out on her until I was ready. She wanted me from the start, and she used to say shit like "I'm in lust with you." This FIND still gave me butterflies in my stomach. God Bless adolescent sexuality.